GO MAY! IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY

Mum's cooking, Debbie is baking and I'm chilling because it's my birthday *Dancing on my bed* LOL! To be honest, today just seems like a normal day... I came back from uni all knackered, went straight to bed and now I've just woken up thinking about my life. 

Why has God kept me alive to see this day? What's my purpose here on earth? Have I found that purpose? Where do I wanna be this time next year? Where was I this time last year? Where am I at the moment? 

The last one year has been filled with so many silent battles, bipolar behaviours, spiritual stagnancy, betrayals, emotional numbness and so many dramas. This time last year, I had so many questions I needed answers to, I was worried about so many things, I had several nightmares warning me about things but I didn't know exactly what to do with them.

I prayed and prayed in my own little way! At apoint, I didn't know exactly what to pray about, all I could do was read Psalms 3(my favourite psalm these days) and Psalms 34(which someone told me to pray with). I knew God wasn't just listening, Christ was also praying for me :) It's really been a year of many stories, when I look back and see how far God's grace has brought me, I can't but give thanks. At those awkward moments when people expected me to breakdown or disappear into thin air, God strengthened me! He became the source of my strength, peace and joy, the kind that surpasses all understanding. You know that kind of peace, joy and strength that confuses both well-wishers and haters LOL!. Some couldn't tell whether I was really ok or not, some thought I was just faking it but I totally enjoyed it! I loved the look on some people's face each time they said hello or asked about my well being... it was Priceless!  I was doing very well and didn't need to proof my 'okness' to anyone.

Today, I'm thankful to God for making both the sweet and sour experiences in the past year work together for my good! When my heart was overwhelmed, he held me close! He has indeed been my shield, my glory and the lifter up of my head!It's been 23 full years of ups and downs, of plenty laughter and some moment of tears. What can I say but a big thank you to the Lord who orchestrated my life's journey! God has been so good to me, if all the hair on my head were tongues they won't be enough to sing his praise.

Over the year, I learnt a few lessons I would like to share a few with you.

1)     When you are in God’s good books, all things (the good, the bad, the beautiful and ugly) will work together for your good! Don’t let your disappointments weigh you down, God will make sure testimonies come out from the tests you are going true if only you’ll trust him.    “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose”- Romans 8:28.

2)     Wisdom is usually a better weapon than strength!  Sometimes people you respect so much will try to take you for a fool, you might have all it takes to put them in their place immediately but wisdom  is what will make you sort them out in a way that will please both God and man.    “Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all your getting get understanding.”- Proverbs 4:7

3)     Silence is a very powerful tool, learn to keep quiet!   One of my favourite big brothers always says to me “BabyMay just keep quiet and watch, your silence cannot be quoted”.  I had moments when I really felt like screaming the roof off but I tried to shut my mouth up even when people were getting on my nerves.  It wasn't an easy thing to do but trust me guys, silence works!   It confuses and makes those whose hands are not clean nervous.   “Even a fool, when he holds his peace, is counted wise: and he that shuts his lips is esteemed a man of understanding”.-Proverbs 17:28

I didn't plan to do anything today but it seems like these girls are so up to something, I smell fooddddd !!!! Now let me go see what's cooking in the kitchen *Dancing* Go May, it's your birthday*.

I had a fun-filled day J Special thanks to my darling little sis Debbie for baking the yummy cupcakes A , to my adorable adopted sisters Wunmi and Ife for putting the b-day dinner together, and to  everyone who called and sent messages. May the Lord bless you all JJJ.